Wednesday, 26 December 2018

Please, Come Back

I couldn’t forever pretend that I’m okay without your presence in my life. This feeling, whether true or not, is too real to be wrong.

You have bewitched me body and soul, and then you hafta know that I could do everything to make you fall for me again.

It’s really out of my mind. No matter how many times I deny the feeling, I always fall for you again and again. It’s like I’m under your spell, and your effect is unbelievably huge on me.

So stop being cold – just stop that. You have no idea of what you’ve done to me. You’ve touched the deepest part of my heart, and then you leave just like that…damn, it feels so fucking hurt.

I have no clue why is this happening to me. The thing is I want you to come back. So please, come back.

Writer: Lista R
Illustration: Pinterest

Friday, 21 December 2018

The Way You Smoke Your Cigarette

I used to hate cigarette, but you make me feel like I never did – The way you smoke, baby, it's so cool. Thus one who stares could then be just sinking and die.

And now, look at you! Standing on the corner with that blue denim covering your shirt and sharp eyes you possess, you move your long legs toward my bench and say, "I can't promise you to stop smoking today, but I promise I'll change."

And then, you promptly sit beside me, starting to enjoy your hot black coffee – with style.

Babe, I don't ask you anything. You're perfect.

Writer: Lista R
Image Source: Pinterest

Thursday, 20 December 2018

The Absence of Love

Illustration by @oztheartist

As if I knew love by far,
I said that I yearned for love by hard.
Monotonous attacked my heart,
Everything came to be just so flat.
A bit impetus had no part,
Unlike someone who is so smart,
What kind of pabulum I must have had?

Slow but sure has ruined it all
My standpoint on life;
My perspective of myself;
My way of thinking of love itself.

I said that I yearned for love by hard,
As if I knew love by far.
Thereupon, I asked myself under one assumption,
“Is it true that I yearned for such strong emotion?”—

“…Or is it merely just its affection?”

Writer: Lista R
Illustrator: Ozzy (@oztheartist)

Monday, 17 December 2018

The Chemistry between Us

Illustration by Ameya

We used to spend the night until 4 AM. The stories that we told to each other; the silliness and the happiness we shared – engraving the smile on our lips and the laugh on our face. Sometimes we just enjoyed the silence, which I was pretty sure the murmur in our heart and the thought in our mind wondering about what’s next going on?

Even when our sleepy head seduced us to leave – toward the dreaming universe which I hoped consisted of you and me, our eyes couldn’t lie and in stillness, we said: I still want to be with you, but I’m too shy to say it to you. Please stay.

Then, we continued with an indistinct conversation or some hilarious games we played it fun. Maybe it’s a waste of time, but we forgot about the time. As every moment we’re together, everything felt so damn fine, and it’s just hard to say goodbye although it only applied up to the next day.

Sometimes I spotted the same eyes on you when we wanted to point everything out. Yet honey, after all – I guessed it didn’t matter anymore. As deep down, we’ve already known. Even if it’s never spoken, what’s the point of words when our eyes have shown it all?

-The Chemistry between Us
by Lista R

Monday, 10 December 2018

A Year of A Rollercoaster

Illustration by Ross Murray

It’s been a year of a rollercoaster. A year that not only full of hopes and happiness but also full of pain and disappointments. Small victories and heartbreaks, laughter and tears – some of them made me laugh on a sunny day and cry in the middle of the night. No matter how and no matter what, they left me memories and life lessons that have sparked color into my stories. And here are the colors:
  1. Unexpected things can be happening one millisecond later.
  2. Never love your company, just love your job.
  3. Finish your project in one quarter of the year or maybe two.  
  4. Never be infatuated in the age of 20s.
  5. Love, at first sight, is a big no-no.
  6. People easily come and go.
  7. It’s hard to find a new home and a new family today.
  8. Never believe in your coworkers, just trust them.
  9. People forget when you are no longer in their socket or pocket.
  10. No deep conversation with strangers.
  11. Never share stories to even your closest friends about uncertain things.
  12. Use your logic first, but never be an asshole.
  13. Heartbreak is a fuel for a more respected love lesson.
  14. We are all fool in love.
  15. Karma does exist.
  16. Mr. Clean is not that clean.
  17. Don’t expect.
  18. Don’t expect.
  19. Don’t expect.
  20. Life is hard, but the show must go on.
A year of a rollercoaster had given me scenes where I flew so high and then I suddenly fell the next day. Indeed, it’s mostly dark – that left me scars, shocks, and pains. Some of them changed my perspective, some of them improvised my idealism. They broke my heart and my trust in people and in love, but they’re never strong enough to kill me. For I’ve been used to pain and pain is my friend.  

“I may cry, but my tears will dry;
I may drown, but still, I try to dive,
And I will ride til’ I arrive.”

Thanks, 2018.
Looking forward to hearing from 2019.


Friday, 7 December 2018

Just Another Distraction

I was waiting for your name popping up on my screen
Yet they didn’t appear or did you just really disappear?

It had been more than 24-hours,
and it remained the same until tomorrow.
I guessed that we would be in a long haul.
Just like you said on the other call.

Ironically, it turned out to be wrong –
Baby, you’ve broken it all.
Yet, what could I’ve said?
You’ve just made yourself as another distraction.

Now, there’s nothing but thank you for the lesson.

Writer: Lista R
Image Source: Pinterest