Perhaps that’s
the best quote that suitable for me right now. I am in search of myself about
who I am and who I really want to be in the future.
I’ve heard
once a saying by Mandy Hale, “Some steps
need to be taken alone. It’s the only way to really figure out where you need
to be.”
Alone is the best way to find the answer of “who
am I”.
I agree.
Alone is the
best way to discover the true potential of me. To know thoroughly about myself.
I start isolating
myself from the crowd. Leaving all my jobs and start doing what I love.
And, I enjoy it.
But then, in
the middle of my solitude I ask myself:
“Am I good enough?”
“Why I still
don’t know myself?”
“Why I’m
stuck?”
Time flies,
second still counts, but why haven’t I found the essence point of my life?
Am still lost…
I start
crying… secretly.
I am being…
paranoid.
Will I stay
like this?
My fear
about being lost, about being not good enough are profoundly big.
I DON’T KNOW MYSELF!
I need
someone to tell me that everything will be alright, but no one comes nor
understands.
Day by day
has been through. The shadow of failure still haunts me almost always every
second. I wake up and realize…
The shadow will
always haunt me. No matter what, no matter when. And perhaps millions of people
also feel the same way too.
Now I
decide, for the sake of who I am. Under the circumstances of fully paranoid, I
will do my best, I will keep doing what I love.
Because I
believe when the best I invest, one day I’ll gain the best as well.
My name is
Lista, and here I am.
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